I want a donut.  But that won’t be enough.  I want 17 donuts and that still wont be enough.  Because it’s that kind of day.  Not in all things, just in work.  The kind of day where you need something to make work easier, to make it run smoothly, to make work….well work.  I thought maybe a donut would do that mostly because they make me so happy sometimes.  But I know deep down that all the donut will do is make me feel like a fat kid.  Sometimes eating healthy can be so boring because sometimes what you want is a donut packed with shit that’s bad for you.  And when you get it, you realize that it wasn’t enough….because you crave more.  More sugar, more chocolate.  So what I want will never be enough on this kind of day.

Yesterday what I wanted was to close my eyes.  So I took a nap.  That was enough (granted it made me sleep like crap last night…but at the time..it was enough).  I finished a book last night because I wanted to read for a change of pace but it wasn’t enough…i didn’t want the story to end.  I wanted to read on and on and on but that’s the way it goes with good books…its never enough.

This blog sounds rather depressing I realize.  But I’m not depressed, just thoughtful.  I’m still going to get that donut even though I know how it will make me feel.  But for the few seconds that I have it and all the yummy goodness, it will be enough.  After it is gone, I’ll just have to deal with wanting more.